New Toy

With the help of my friend Storm, I've been introduced to a new organizational toy: Workflowy.

The design is beautiful. It provides a good reference point for what I've been working on in terms of productivity. As the name suggests, the physical and logical elements of the design give it a good feeling of flow. I like it better than Evernote because of this. It really does "sync" with my brain much better. Will it really be useful? Time will tell.

As someone who practices Zen might learn to expect, any sense of progress I have these days does not come from accomplishing goals with more flourish and elan, but rather from better observation and a more ubiquitous feeling of quiet and repose in everything I do. For example, I went running today, and it was probably the best run I've ever had. I'm sure there were lots of physical factors, such as the time of day, exactly what I had eaten, the clothes I was wearing, etc., that influenced how I felt, but, from another perspective, it's just time for me to start enjoying running more.

As for who I am, I feel incrementally more satisfied with that. I do feel a bit of grief this evening do to a communication mishap with Penelope; I think it will probably be okay, but I am torn up over it. It's something that has happened before: my text message inbox got too full, and I missed a bunch of text messages. What happened this time, was that I missed a number of invitations to get back together with her after an unusually short weekend. I didn't read them until it was way too late.

This would be a good situation to sit with my feelings, which I'll do in a moment. I feel some guilt, as usual, but this would be a good opportunity to let go of the guilt feelings in an effort to open up to something larger. I do not only feel guilt. I really am upset at the fact that we missed this chance to be together again - I mourn it. It would have been a good time. I don't have to regret what I did; just sit with that feeling of loss. It can be bitter and sweet.

Good night, all.