Station-ary

Tonight: a quick check in before I hit the hay. My plan to dive into this new found love of focus has turned back into cycling through a few tasks and never feeling like I'm spending enough time on each one. I am more focused with each one that I usually am, though: I got a lot of CS learning, article writing (a very busy task, I realize, if I want to take it seriously) and violin playing done today. The new blog is almost ready. I continue to tweak it, bit by bit, but I've begun to move my reviews over there. The transfer should be complete tomorrow, and I'll post a link here so all of my teeming fans can bookmark it. Yesterday I had my first session of movement therapy; I still want to be freer, damn it, and talk therapy was not working for me when I last left it as it had in the past. I need to get into my body more. It was an excellent experience - a lot of the work was very subtle - focusing on muscles deep in my abdomen and adjustments to my spine, but it seemed to have a strong effect on me. I look forward to more classes in the future. I'd like to write more about it in the next few days, too, about what it all means and what brought me there. I'm really enjoying my new, more productive self. Maybe the lack of video entertainment has contributed that significantly? I might even say I'm happy right now - were it not for the incredible instability. Or maybe I'm actually comfortable in that instability? That can't be true - not entirely. But maybe I'm finding new strength due to the challenge. Not sure. I only can keep moving. Good night, all.