It's not sunny, but the cloud is fantastic

Bear with me as I continue to focus on my schedule.

I woke up around 6:50 this morning. I ended up staying in bed until around 7:20. I woke up feeling rested and relaxed. This is a very good change. Excellent, in fact. Because, really, what I'm aiming for is to feel good. All the other stuff is details.

So I felt good. I had my protein shake, which I had to take in front of my roommates, because I refrigerate it now. This means I do a little bit of talking before I meditate. I really don't like that. It's just another step away from how I would like the morning meditation to go.

But the meditation was fine. It was focused. A noticeable lack of tension this morning, now that I am just burning to feel tension and begin criticizing myself for feeling tension so that I can accept it all: the failure to relax, the failure to be kind to myself, everything. Accept and allow everything, is my current injunction from both my therapist and Zen teacher. Funny how it works.

I exercised for about 15 minutes, made a breakfast and concocted what ended up being a gigantic salad for lunch. Doing dishes and everything else, I was finished with the kitchen at around 9:20. I had political snark videos to entertain me (mainly Bill Maher and Rachel Maddow). I consider this a guilty pleasure rather than helpful for anything.

Then I did a few grooming things, getting ready for work. But instead of sitting down and doing the spreadsheet stuff, I spontaneously decided to play accordion. Which was fun. Then I had to bring out other instruments, my drum, my flutes, and play them for about 10 minutes. Now I'm blogging, and it's time to go.

Worse things can happen in the morning. I'm just going to ride this out. Though there are serious things to consider in life and limited time to do all the work, there are worse interruptions than feeling fine.