Circuitfields

How I'm feeling right now: Still that congestion. Way too full; a little bloated. Phlegm in throat. Mild anxiety over completion of tasks; mild anxiety about being alive. A restfulness. Dissatisfaction at the radio station I'm listening to. Tightness in my hip flexors. Tired. Mild satisfaction over work done.

I don't sound too inspired tonight, and I'm not. But I did some good things for myself this evening, including practicing accordion and further cleaning the files on my Dell. I had about 30 minutes to work tonight, and I spent most of it reorganizing my photos. Not only was I able to clear up many, many duplicates, thus saving memory and removing clutter, I was able to arrange them in chronological order. It would be very easy now to tell the story of my life over the past 7 years or so by following the photos. I imagine I'm going to do this very soon with Penelope; these days, we've been spending a lot of time talking about the details of our lives. There is a big gap - I seem to have no photos of 2007 and very few in 2008. I know where to find some more, but I'm not going out of my way to fill up the albums.

I am making progress on this task I've needed to be done with for almost 3 months now. Like many things in my life right now, it seems a little anal, but this obsessive focus is what it takes to get this stuff done and off my desk for good. The next steps are:

-Further organize photos, using consistent names
-Further organize documents, using consistent folders for each era (the eras are named after the computer the file was formed on)
-Move them over to the Mac
-Resettle the Mac files to how I like them
-Get the specifications of the Dell (because I think I'm actually going to try selling it)
-Purge the Dell, shut it, close it, store it, sell it
Job done

I'm realizing that, now that I'm becoming such an expert on coming up with thorough and effective To Do lists, I need to start improving my ability to prioritize. That is, which project deserves the most attention. I only have so much time (30 minutes today, apparently), and I need to choose carefully. While I'm using my blog to talk about somewhat more temporary activities in this blog, most of my day is taken up with zazen, physical activities and work, which are my priorities right now. But of course there is a huge list of other important things. For example: planning my trip to Peru, career counseling stuff, music, working on my car, rethinking my finances/bank account, writing, yoga practice, reading, hiking, camping, learning languages, gardening/house plants, cleaning the house, working on my bathroom, working on my clothes. This is actually quite a chunk of it, but it's not all. Life is busy.

My hope has been that, the more old things I clear out, the more energy, space and time I'll have for newer and/or deeper activities. I think it's clear that this business of prioritizing plays into it, so I need to pay closer attention.

And, yes, I have a heart, too - I'm not just a schedule. Never, ever hurts to take the time to remember that.

Good night, all.