Fiver

To signify how many minutes I will be writing tonight, I use the name of a character from one of my favorite books.

What's important to set down this morning? The need to express anger. If I mentioned it already, I'll say it again.

I need to find a way to express my anger better.

I have been doing well this week in really sitting with it and acknowledging it. What needs to be done? I'm not exactly sure. There's a lot to explore. How does one approach a feeling, once one truly touches it and allows it to develop?

Maybe nothing. That's the zen way. Observe and allow, that is. But nothing more.

Do I need to get a punching bag out? Not likely. Clearly my culture exalts the avoidance of feelings through action. It is an extreme I need to avoid as much as the one I tend to dwell in (not acknowledging the feeling - downplaying it - suppressing action.)

This feels like good work - real, real crucial and helpful for me. This is my healing work - to express the anger.

There is much more going on - I acknowledge this. Anger itself is just a symbol for something deeper, a darker, more primal energy. But it is a good point of focus. Healthy and helpful.

If I have more time at some point, clearly I'll be more specific. But these thoughts are good reminders, for the moment.

Good night, all.