Where to begin?

With the end, obviously.

It's late and I'm tired.

What a freakin' day. Seriously. The past two days have been a lot. Very much a lot.

Ok, I'll be brief: My relationship with Sarah - the one that's not a romance - is the most intense, energizing, fucked up, challenging relationship I've ever had. I think part of it is because of a genuine, solid kind of chemistry - whatever that is, exactly. Part of it, I wonder sometimes, could be the fact that she, unlike anyone else, can easily bat aside the defense mechanisms that keep me distanced from other people. Those aren't exactly contradictory.

What's a little edifying here is that although the "unrequited love" nonsense is one-sided, I really don't think anything else is. If it is, then, well, I'm idealizing and making too much of a big deal out of something again. Worse things have happened.

We had a long talk today. A lot was said. I can't get into everything right now. But it was very much a lot, and I need to think about many different things. More later. Perhaps a change in the way I blog here.

Other things happened, too. Good work things. And the Shamanism group went really, really well. I made a few new friends tonight; awesome people.

But I'm going to sleep now.

Good night, all.