Day of Feeling 30

Well, here it is. The last post of the Thirty Days of Feeling.

How do I feel?

A bit disappointed in what I came up with. I did virtually nothing besides blog. It's good for me to be writing these things, but I feel like I could have done so much more. It was helpful; yes, very helpful. But I didn't branch out into new ways of being.

I always felt rushed. This is part of how my life is right now. Everything is rushed and incomplete and unsatisfied. Right now I will be going to bed far later than I should, in order to get a full night's sleep. I will have a good day, though.

I want to be able to sit down and work more, dig deeper into all of these things. I don't want to feel scattered and tired and compulsively looking for ways to distract myself.

I want to create a self. It needs richness of feeling. I am working from paycheck to paycheck with feeling right now.

I wanted to write more, tonight, but I'm going to have to let it go; let my intention go to sleep with me and stay with me the next day, and hopefully one day branch out and take root somewhere.

I want to find the riches inside of me. They are somewhere.

Good night. Good month.